Fall.

The moment I fell in love with you
Cannot be deduced into one time point alone.

It was somewhere between the day I caught you staring at me
Like I was something more
While I was reeling in and out of fatigue
As I had stayed up all night from caffeine
And odd thoughts of you the night before.

It was during the 1 AM conversation we had,
When I confessed to you of all my baggage
And how you fearlessly took it upon yourself
To take the weight off my shoulders
When you didn’t even know what was weighing me down.

It happened again on our first date,
How the tension of a first kiss lingered between us
From the moment I walked in through the doors of your house
That held the most magnificent view of the city.

I remember being breathless that day
When I stood in your kitchen an marvelled at how beautiful the universe is,
When you wrapped your arms around my waist,
When I had the pleasure of witnessing you make music,
When you leaned into kiss me all three times,
And when your lips finally met mine on the last.

I fell a little more that summer day you brought me to the peak of the city
And we walked hand in hand down the winding path,
Getting lost as we laid side by side on a patch of grass
As if we were the protagonists of a love story.

I fell less elegantly for you,
The first time I let envy seep into my veins.
I let the tinge of jealously taint my words,
Until I became silent in fear of hurting you.

It happened again that evening
We laid in bed together with our arms and legs intertwined,
As I watched you fall asleep slowly first,
And then all at once.

It happens again, and again,
Even more easily than before.
I fall when I see you laughing with my mother in the kitchen,
When you hold my hand in the car,
When you share your favourite stories with me,
When you brush your fingers delicately over my cheek.

And it will happen more and more.
I’ll fall deeper and deeper in love with you
Every time I catch you staring at me,
Every time you lean in to kiss me,
Every time you say my name.

All that I can ask is,
Please catch me when I fall.
Don’t let me crash.